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Unmotivated Girl Problems

Every single day I go through the same exact thought process.

Going to bed, 1 am: Tomorrow, I’m going to go work out.  I’m going to eat healthy and go to the gym and feel better about myself.

Wake up, 10 am: Ugh, I’m tired.  I’ll just read some blogs on WordPress, check my Facebook, then go get some breakfast.

11 am: I’m really full.  Maybe I should do some homework while I wait for my stomach to settle.

3 pm: Boyfriend will be home from school soon. Maybe I can convince him to take the dog for a walk with me.

4 pm: Boyfriend won’t go. What a surprise.  I need to start making dinner soon.

7 pm: I’m full.  Maybe I should do some knitting.

1 am: Why didn’t I work out today? Tomorrow I’m going to go to the gym.

Repeat cycle.

I lack motivation.  I’ll be the first to admit it.  When it comes to getting homework done or meeting a deadline, I’m on that shit like white on rice.  But when it comes to self-discipline or perseverance, I tend to let things slide.  A lot.

I’ve tried motivational quotes, eating plans, guilting myself into working out by reading other people’s weight-loss experiences.  Nothing sticks.  I go a week or two really motivated and excited about what I’m doing, then I miss one day and everything goes downhill.  I’m sure a lot of people have this problem, but when all I see is successful people, it makes it that much more difficult.

Whenever I get on one of my healthy kicks, my boyfriend is always really motivating and helpful.  However, he has the exact opposite problem that I do.  He can’t put on weight to save his life, whereas I eat a piece of bread and I can see the outlines of the crust in my belly two hours later.  He won’t work out with me, or try to eat healthy with me either.  It kind of makes sense, since he needs to eat like four pizzas a day to maintain his current body weight of 125 lbs, but things would be so much easier if I had someone who was trying to get healthy with me.

Or maybe I’m just making excuses.  Maybe things wouldn’t be any easier if my boyfriend, or anyone for that matter, was on board.  Maybe I just need to woman-up and deal with weight loss the same way I deal with homework and deadlines: with a no-nonsense attitude.  Maybe I just need to reread this post everyday to remind me of my feelings towards getting healthy and hope that it does the trick.  Or maybe I’m just destined to become a four hundred pound old woman with thirty-seven cats.  But I seriously hope not, because I hate cats.

What keeps you motivated on a daily basis?

Holly, not Hollie

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Six Things I Love Sunday: April 8th

Happy Easter everyone!  Today is going to be a quick post because I’ve been pretty sick over the last couple of days, so I’m not feeling up to putting a whole lot of effort into blogging today.  Hopefully you guys understand. 🙂


1. High-Waisted Bandage Skirts

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Why? I have been obsessed with these skirts lately.  They seem like such a going-out staple, but I cannot seem to find them anywhere!  I was shopping a few days ago and I popped into H&M and Express, and these skirts were nowhere to be found.  If anyone owns a skirt like this, please let me know where you got it.  I’m dying over here.


2. Think Bronze by Clinique

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Why? It has only been very recently that I’ve gotten into wearing lipstick.  I always thought I was a little too young and I didn’t want to look like an old lady.  Boy was I wrong.  This Think Bronze lipstick is like my go-to color now.  This pink/beige hue is perfect when you want a neutral that makes a statement.


3. African Autumn Tea

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Why? I started drinking tea consistently about six months ago, and now it has replaced my daily coffee.  I bought this tea from Starbucks, and it has become my favorite.  With cranberry and orange flavors, this tea is tart and sweet, all without one drop of caffeine.  If you are looking for some good teas, I would definitely recommend buying from Harney and Sons.


4. Your Daring Side by Anise

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Why? I am seriously in love with this color.  For some reason, I have been loving dark colors on my nails.  I know spring is supposed to be all about pastels, neons, and bright colors, but there’s just something so sexy about dark nails.


5. Open Stitch Sweater 

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Why? I just bought this sweater a couple days ago from American Eagle, and it is a dream.  It’s snug and so cute with a tank underneath, and just perfect for those days where it’s just a little too chilly to not have a sweater.  I was a little hesitant at first because I’m usually not a huge fan of the holey look, but this top really changed my outlook.  You can check it out here.


6. Stacked Bracelets

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Why? I’m pretty simplistic when it comes to jewelry.  And when I say simplistic, I mean virtually nonexistent.  I have a pair of diamond studs that I wear constantly and a pink sapphire ring my boyfriend bought for me that I wear sometimes.  Other than that, I really don’t feel the need to spend a lot of money on jewelry.  After recently making some of my own jewelry, however, I am hoping to soon perfect this stacked bracelet look.  I have always loved bracelets, but so often I forget to throw on accessories before I leave the house, so I never want to waste my money on something I think I’ll just forget about.  By making my own jewelry though, I can now take advantage and rock this style without breaking my bank.


Alright, there you have it.  And of course it wouldn’t be a true Six Things I Love Sunday without asking you guys what you are loving right now.  So tell me!

Holly, not Hollie

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What I Do Instead of Studying

Normally I’m not a procrastinator, but it’s days like these where I suffer from a highly rare condition: idontwanttodomyhomeworkitis.  This condition stems from days where you have already finished a lot of things on your to-do list, and although there’s more, you just want to put it off as long as possible.  Now when I say “finished a lot of things”, I mean two.  But whatever.

So, instead of doing homework, this is what I did.

Just a little hemp bracelet.

I was planning on making a beaded bracelet, only to find out that after going to Walmart AND Michael’s, they didn’t offer the type of cord that I needed (mind you, this was after I bought $20 worth of beads and things to make the bracelets).  So instead, I bought some hemp, found this wonderful tutorial, and made this bracelet.

If you’re planning on following in my footsteps and using the tutorial, just a couple notes.

  • You do NOT need seven feet of hemp, especially if you’re just making a bracelet.  If you use seven feet, this is what happens when you’re finished.

Such a waste of material.

  • In the tutorial, it says to clip down the middle two strands of hemp while you weave the outer strands.  Although this is helpful, you don’t really need to do this.  I simply taped the loop of the bracelet down to my laptop and wove the bracelet.  Since I’m lazy, it was easier than finding a clip and worked just as well.
  • I would suggest using thick hemp for this project.  As you can see from the picture above, I used thinner hemp and it turned out pretty small.  I didn’t feel like going out and buying more hemp, so in order to make a second bracelet I doubled up on the hemp (using four pieces instead of two) and although it worked pretty well, it ended up being too short which is why it’s not pictured.  So, this is an option for you too if you don’t have thicker hemp.
My plan is to make some beaded bracelets (I ended up ordering the cord online), so I’ll post those once I’ve made them.  Can’t wait to layer these this spring and summer!

Happy crafting!

Holly, not Hollie

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Six Things I Love Sunday: April 1st

This week, I wanted to dedicate my post to books.  I’ve always been an avid reader, and unfortunately, since I started college a few years ago my love for reading novels has had to take a backseat to reading textbooks.  Recently, I’ve started reading for pleasure again (thanks for the Nook, Mom!), so I thought I should share a few of my favorite books with you guys.

1. The Hunger Games

Why? It wouldn’t be a good book list if I didn’t start out with this one.  I’m pretty sure everyone and their mother has read this book and seen the movie at this point.  I haven’t seen the movie yet, since unfortunately my social anxiety has decided to kick into full force recently, but I’ve heard that it’s amazing.  I’m currently on the third book in the trilogy, but my friend from Madison asked to borrow it, so I won’t be finishing it until I see him next, which could be a couple months from now.

2. Room

Why? This book is sheer genius.  It’s told from the perspective of a small boy, who lives with his mother in a shed that was remodeled by her abductor.  The mother has created this life for him, and he never truly understands the dynamics of the situation, even when his mother decides it’s time to escape.  This book’s content can be dark and a little disturbing at times, but overall, it inspires and makes you see the world through a new light.

3. Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children

Why? This is one of the stranger books I’ve read.  Ransom Riggs incorporates random photographs he found at flea markets into the story, creating a truly strange and captivating read.  This story follows a teenage boy as he collects clues left by his grandfather and eventually stumbles upon an old Welsh orphanage, also known as Miss Peregrine’s home.  If you are looking for a unique read, I would seriously recommend this one.

4. The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo

Why? There is no other way to describe this book than a thriller.  Once again, I haven’t seen the movie due to my annoyingly crippling anxiety, but I’m considering watching the Swedish rendition on Netflix while I wait.  Although the first portion of this book is really hard to get into (it took me nearly two weeks to get through the first 100 pages), it is well worth it in the end.  Lisbeth Salander is a true heroine, albeit a little twisted.  Surprisingly, you can actually relate to her unconventional way of living, and once the book gets going, it’s impossible to put it down.  I’m about halfway through its sequel, The Girl Who Played With Fire, and so far I am not disappointed.

5. Look Me in the Eye

Why? Probably due to my love for psychology (it is my minor, after all!), I love all things relating to personality disorders and mental disabilities. They’ve always intrigued me, for some strange reason, so much so that for awhile, my idea of a dream job was working in a mental hospital.  So when I came across this book, I couldn’t put it down.  Look Me in the Eye chronicles the life of John Elder Robison as a person living with Asperger’s Syndrome.  I also read Running With Scissors, which was actually written by Robison’s brother, Augusten Burroughs.  Both books were simply amazing and inspiring.


6. I Hope They Serve Beer in Hell

Why?  If you are easily offended, this book is definitely not for you.  Crude and crass, Tucker Max chronicles his life as a womanizing man who is more often drunk than sober.  This book is essentially a collection of short stories, and it never fails to make you laugh.  I remember reading this book in high school with my boyfriend at the time, laughing so hard we were crying.  Nothing like reading about other people’s problems to make you feel better about your own.

What are some of your favorite books at the moment?

Holly, not Hollie

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The Closet From Hell, Part One

Today, I come at you with a post that gives you a little more insight into my world.  Instead of doing my mountains of homework, cooking dinner, or cleaning my house today, I decided to be productive towards my closet.  I have been putting off organizing it for so long, mostly for the fact that I have nowhere to put the huge masses of junk that has been slowly consuming my tiny closet for about a decade now.  In addition to the massive amount of clothes I have accumulated over the years, I have stuffed animals, trophies, books (lots of books), shoes, and miscellaneous boxes stuffed in their as well.  Initially, it was easy to just sift through the stuff to find what I need, then shut it so nobody could see how disastrous it was, I’m at the point where I actually want to be able to find things in my closet.

As you may have noticed, I titled this post The Closet From Hell, Part One.  This part one comes into effect because I spent almost three hours organizing tonight, and I’m about a third of the way done.  I only dealt with my shoes and clothes today, so that leaves all the other junk (see above) that I still have to figure out what to do with.  Long story short, there will be at least one more post about my closet in the days to come, once I summon up the courage to tackle the rest of it.

So, without further ado, the before:

Right side of closet

Left side of closet

Okay, now a lot of you may be thinking, Oh, that’s not that bad.  My closet looks a ton worse.  Wrong.  It may not seem like I have a lot of clothes, but on top of this, I have a clothes rack on the opposite side of my room, two dressers, and built in shelving in my closet (which I’ll show later).  Trust me, I have A LOT of clothes.  Not to mention my boyfriend lives with me, so I’ve got his stuff to deal with too.

I started this project at 5 pm.  It is now almost 9 pm.  I’ll show you how my room looked at about, oh, 6:30 pm.

My boyfriend, being a great helper.

As you can see, there was just all sorts of mess going on.  At the end of it all, I counted the empty hangers that were taking up space in my closet. 173.  Like, what?  Is that even a real number?  I’m pretty sure if I had just taken out the loose hangers, I probably would’ve freed up half my closet.

I ended up folding all of my cardigans and sweatshirts and putting them in the interior shelving.  Then, (although you won’t be able to tell from the picture) I color-coordinated all my tops, organizing them by style.  Lastly, I moved all my shoes over to the other side of my closet, hung up some organizers, and…

Right side of closet

Left side of closet


This whole process took about three hours, because I stopped to eat some dinner halfway through.  However, I’m kind of sad that there’s really not difference to be seen, besides the extra organizers I put in.  I had to remind myself that I actually did organize, because from the pictures it’s probably impossible to tell.  Another thing I realized after I finished: it’s going to be pretty difficult to get out the sweatshirts I want, especially the ones that are hiding behind the white organizer.  Ugh.  I guess I’ll end up redoing it again at some point, but for now I’m happy.

What are your best organization tips?  I’d love to hear them!

Holly, not Hollie

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March Method to My Madness

Happy March first to all!  Last night, I was browsing the blogs when I came across kaftan to bikini.  She is using her blog to document her weight loss, and I thought that was so inspiring that I’ve decided to do the same.

I’m sure I’m not the only person who finds it difficult to get motivated to work out or eat better.  Sometimes, I’ll go downstairs with the best of intentions to make myself a healthy breakfast/lunch/dinner, and it seems like all the junk foods in my house are staring me down, silently screaming, “Eat me, eat me!”  Needless to say I give in, much more often than I should.  Well this lack of control, my friends, is about to end.

Currently, I am 5’8, 190 lbs.  My goal is to get down to 140 lbs, like I was back in my rugby- and tennis-playing days.  Frankly, I’m tired of being the overweight one in my group of friends, and it doesn’t exactly help that my boyfriend is 130 lbs soaking wet.  I want to feel better about myself, not just physically but mentally as well.

I recently got a membership to a gym by my house, so my plan is to continue working out there and starting more at-home exercises, like crunches, push ups, squats, etc.  I also used to do yoga, so hopefully I can get my body back in fighting shape to attempt some Salamba Sirsasana again.

I would really appreciate any recommended exercises you guys have that have worked well for you.  My target body part is my abs, since I seem to have acquired this lower-ab pouch that isn’t too keen on leaving.

After writing this, I suppose I should go work out.  Off to the gym I go for Day One!

Holly, not Hollie

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